Category Archives: #WickedWednesday

SwirlingFire: Game, Set. Match

Reading Time: 2 minutes Game, Set. Match That’s a great Avi As the drool hits the screen Another great body All buffed Shiny clean lace, heels, stockings Can you hear the clasps snap I’m new I’m exciting My bio screams “bait” The opening gambit The giggle back kissy face emojis Followback chat The usual style The change underway The tentative enquiries targets… Read More »

SwirlingFire: See You Next Tuesday

Reading Time: 4 minutes See You Next Tuesday Tuesday 14 May 2019 “See You Next Tuesday” Tuesday’s I always want to sleep as long as possible, invariably, I wake up really early, before six am and can’t settle back to sleepy snoozing. I then have 7 or 8 hours of restless pacing or trying to find errands or jobs around the house… Read More »

SwirlingFire: Gratitude

Reading Time: 4 minutes Gratitude It’s the weirdest thing. Seeing my Twitter @name in a compilation list  – The Top 100 Sex Blogging Superheroes of 2019 I’m not a nuts and bolts, dildo testing, vibrator wielding, uncovered gusset angled writer. Whilst, I quickly add – zero judgements of others – this is, after all, how we learn from each other and find our… Read More »

SwirlingFire: The Camera Never Lies

Reading Time: 4 minutes The Camera Never Lies I wish I were able to take photos like many of the talented stills I see regularly on social media.  Whether still life, animals, botanical or body parts from any angle.  It started my mind twirling.  Beauty is in the eye of the beholder, there can be one simple frame from a session that… Read More »

SwirlingFire: Kink and Fetish

Reading Time: 6 minutes Kink and Fetish I am such a freaky chick. I get turned on by really odd things. I hadn’t realised until quite recently what turns me on to someone can also turn me completely off too. 1.    Word Play – That’s one of my “things” – word play as flirting, challenging my mind with words I thought… Read More »

Kill The Heretic

Reading Time: 4 minutes   Sometimes it’s hard to think that you’re doing anything different or what might be regarded as out of the ordinary.  Like-minded souls on Twitter and in the blogosphere are not quite an echo chamber, but they do tend to help normalise the idea that kink is ubiquitous. And perhaps it is.  When the tabloids run their salacious… Read More »

SwirlingFire: The Assessment

Reading Time: 4 minutes The Assessment & Swirling Twirls I need more therapy. There. I said it. Cue eye rolling and yawns for those that think I should’ve been locked up in a facility with my mouth taped shut a long time ago.  It’s easier to know one needs counselling than to actively search for someone qualified without agenda to talk to about… Read More »

SwirlingFire: #365Words for #365Days

Reading Time: 3 minutes I hoped I’d feel so much better to have a goal and exceed it. I don’t feel its much of an achievement. I hurt as much today as I did 365 days ago. The only difference? 99% of it was not about me 1% – Me, believing the lies. I was brainwashed by an expert that practices d/s.… Read More »

SwirlingFire: The Core

Reading Time: 2 minutes The Core One step forward Feeling brave Finding A voice They think she’s a fool Learning starting The knave raising defences boundaries to make People around her Notice sigh “Fake” Eye rolls The mocking Waiting for signs Told you She’ll turn Static and flywheel No middle gears Hurting lonely No one around The heart breaking So quiet Barely… Read More »

SwirlingFire: The “Why?” Of blogging

Reading Time: 4 minutes The “Why?” Of blogging I’m forever trying to figure out what I’ve done in this life to attract abusive, malevolent, intrusive, selfish, violent – verbal, physical and bullying – behaviour from two faced judgemental “perfect” people. It still continues, without direct contact – unprovoked. There will be more exploratory blogs of processing that will be written before I… Read More »

SwirlingFire: The Hero Is The Villian

Reading Time: 4 minutes The Hero Is The Villain My mind is awash with swirling thoughts crashing into each other and not having anywhere to safely stow them whilst I’m processing the dozen other thoughts that were already crashing together inside my head. Sensory overload is a documented state.  Only once my thoughts have calmed down to a gentler slower movement am I… Read More »

SwirlingFire: The Path To Enlightenment

Reading Time: 7 minutes Content Notice:  “As with all my pieces, I write from personal experience not make believe fantasy.  Please exercise care.  No detailed trauma.  References to ‘scat play’ and clinical PTSD lists”   The Path To Enlightenment Triggers can be both positive and negative. I know this may sound counter-intuitive, but bear with me. To understand what a TRUE trigger… Read More »

The Symmetry Of Closure

Reading Time: 4 minutes Life sometimes offers us an opportunity to revisit an event of the past and have the pleasure of completing it in a way that was not possible in that past.  To put right some ills or disappointments.

SwirlingFire: Betrayal

Reading Time: 2 minutes Betrayal A weird feeling in the pit of my stomach It’s not anxiety It’s different It feels like it’s attached Deep inside my core. I thought at first I needed more water to drink, The trembling of dehydration in soaring temperatures That moment before The room goes silent You feel as though you’re about to vomit A hot… Read More »

Just When It Was All Tickety-Boo

Reading Time: 2 minutes Betrayal !  It’s an ugly word. For me betrayal apparently happens over small things, it’s not the big thing that others describe replete with the frenzy of Armageddon.  In fact I think the worst betrayal I experienced was because she didn’t know she’d done it, despite it being implemented months before it was activated.

SwirlingFire: Survive: Parts 1 & 2

Reading Time: 4 minutes Survive How to survive:- Wake up every morning but you wish you hadn’t Make a morning coffee and sit quietly contemplating what horrors will be reactivated inside ones mind Start the process of slipping back into auto pilot to care for #Mothership Navigate around the home without falling apart into a tearful sobbing mess so Mum wont hear… Read More »

SwirlingFire: Laughter, Tears, Twisted Thoughts and Fears

Reading Time: 3 minutes Laughter, Tears, Twisted Thoughts and Fears Current status: sat in coffee shop reviewing Wicked Wednesday entries for prompt 365 -Laughter Laughing and giggling with an almost four year old and his little brother Charlie.  The innocence of childhood in an apparent happy family unit.  Both little boys were animated in their conversation with me, from the next table… Read More »

Snake Bite

Reading Time: 4 minutes The CP sessions with the domme started some months after the hypnosis.  Even so it’s nearly three years since that first one.  After the latest CP session (yesterday at time of starting this post) I’ve had time to reflect on how much I’ve changed and accomplished in those three years. That first CP session was my first in… Read More »