[F4TFriday] Room 101

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Orwell’s book is an oft mis-quoted book by people who have obviously never actually read it.  I must have first read it when I was about 13, one of the most frightening books I have ever read.

Very apt given that this weekend is the final of the European Champions League

I don’t recall the TV adaptation, nor the film with John Hurt, though I love Terry Gilliam’s Brazil which captures the horror with absolute craziness.

What would I put in Room 101 ?


This label really held me back, though it didn’t do the damage that I’ve seen it do to others.  I’m of an age where general society would look at a male exhibiting feminine aspects in horror, especially transgender people.

The only outlet for someone who knew they had cross dressing and beyond tendencies but had no desire to have it publicly known was the “sissy” space.

It became an incredibly broad label with rather narrow assumptions as to behaviour and inclinations.  Anyone not actively trans was assumed to be a sissy with uniform motivations and desires.

  • A “sissy” lusted after men with a hunger to suck cock
  • A “sissy” wanted to look ridiculously feminine, a pantomime dame
  • A “sissy” had to be in chastity
  • A “sissy” was constantly horny to be fucked
  • A “sissy” lives to be humiliated


Well, you get the picture, even if these only described about 5% of those in “sissy” forums.  These forums were the only outlet for discovery.  They led many down dangerous paths into breakdowns.  The forums become mutually reinforcing until virtually everyone is playing a role that’s completely at odds with their real selves.  Closet cross dressers, nervous subs looking for first FemDom, curious chastity subs – all forced to lump within the single label and conform to the label’s expectations.

My former mistress lifted me out of that cesspit and gave me the name you see me with now.  Specifically she came up with melody because that’s who she knew I was – long before I ever did.  However, from the place I came from, she also tacked on the “sissy”.  It felt fine for the longest time, though from about 5 years ago it started to become a millstone.

Only ten or twelve years after she added the “sissy” part did she tell me that she almost immediately regretted it because she knew it was wrong.

I have learned to hate this label for the damage it does to people who are already nervous and anxious.  I’m annoyed at how long it held back the true exploration of who melody is and needs to be.

Consign it to Room 101 and liberate thousands of subs to be themselves.


Platform “Stripper” Shoes

I love shoes and heels, you only have to see my shoes galleries of part of my collection to realise I could be melody Marcos !! 👠  There’s a thing with some shoe fetish subs whereby all that counts is the height of the heel.  What, I ask is the point of an 8″ heel when the the platform is 5″ thick ?

StripperShoesThis picture is just a representative example of a whole genre in female shoes that I find repulsively inelegant.  I’ve never even associated platforms with sex, as they’re supposed to be in being described as “stripper” shoes.

I’ve only known a very few women that can wear them and not look ridiculous.

What a large platform triggers in my mind is Gary Glitter and that is not a good thing.  If that’s not a reason to put them in Room 101, I don’t know what is.


World Health Organisation

This one will be contentious despite it being my personal perspective.  The WHO recently issued the new ICD-11 manual.  Within it there is an update to ‘gender incongruence’.  In essence a transgender identity is now described as a sexual health issue whereas in ICD-10 it was aligned with DSM-V to be a mental disorder.

Personally I always liked the DSM-V definition that had me defined with a mental disorder for which there is no known cure.  It’s a kind of brutal truth but it put a lot of things in perspective for me because the only way to deal with it was to accept it and own it.

The WHO has removed my excuse to call myself crazy.  I’m not having that, they can go into Room 101.