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There is a very good piece on Unherd by Gavin Haynes that’s well worth a read as it holds up a mirror to the mob mentality of identity politics within social media – The Purity Spiral, do go read it. In my absence from social media I find that I’ve been labelled a bigoted transphobe. […]
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Reality versus Fantasy My reality is not your truth – it does not mean I’m a liar. My memory recall is poor, not my ability to know the genuine, accurate real “right” from manipulated, twisted, abusive “wrong”.
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Top 5 Posts Here are the most clicked on blogs during 2020. Four posts are my personal experiences, except for one – ‘Canary in a Coalmine’ was a massive turning point of support for those that read and recognise the subtle nuances of life experiences many of us never talk about. The survivor of that […]
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Slippery Truth I may not be your cup of tea, I’m marmite not cheap coffee Your breakfast choice is yours alone You’re most welcome to decide, If it’s your valid desire from fact You can unfollow me; If you stay and take your fill That is your choice You know you are allowed to leave […]
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Canary In A Coalmine “I will die without you”, he wailed, as the snot bubbles muffled his tears of well rehearsed anguish. Daily use of five fingered ferns could not subdue his rage, it masked that he had, unsurprisingly skipped his anti-psychosis meds. “ I won’t survive without you”, he snivelled. Threatening to kill himself, […]
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Mental Bondage First text and last text of each day. Doesn’t sound like a big task. It wasn’t. It was so easy to trap my mind into a continuous loop to revolve around him, his needs and wants, I was excluded. First text and last text were often ignored, usually because I could see his […]
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The Devil is a Gentleman Halloween, the spookiest time of the year. Caricatures of ghosts and ghouls, horror film characters, witches, both white magic and black arts, the Devil and disciples, the acolytes in training, headless zombies, Dracula and the Damned. Throw in a few glasses of alcohol, snacks, and sugary treats and a party […]
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The majority of my writing is a creative outlet to process sexual assault / trauma resulting from suppressing #Rape within an uninformed non consensual d/s mentoring “dynamic”. The following piece of prose is a fresh visit as new memories surface and the anniversary to “first scent of fear” approaches – please exercise caution with […]
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his Coffee Choice Selection My favourite colour pod Auto reflex Inhale Deeply Deeper still That first hit Catching thoughts Eyes close with memories A tiny jiggle Click Snapping open Sigh Standing silently The shiver of goosebumps chilly kitchen Click Pod drops Whoosh Aromatic filtered steam Another deep inhalation Little lights blinking Press Type Scroll Press […]
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Cruel To Be Kind Hello “Dear Friend” It’s been bugging memore than it should;
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Blame, Shame – Defame Hours pass by like a decomposing carcass. Entrails ooze as the stench of death hangs over us. Heat seeking destroyers of those still breathing. Carrion Crows in a city that continues to collapse, Whilst incoming circling vultures pick over the remaining pulsating parts. Overweight bluebottles, all spittle and froth deposit their […]
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365 x2 Two years – no direct contact. I’ve become so attuned to “walking on eggshells” that my regular daily phrasing and pausing before responding has become very measured and calm. My brain swirls whilst calculating perceived levels of threat. I try to not react to information. Recently I’ve chosen to mute/unfollow angry, violent, judgemental, […]
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As With many other blog posts included in this separate tab – I write from personal experience mostly regarding the topics of Sexual, verbal, emotional and psychological abuse, #Narcissistic Personality Disorder #NPD and, #Sadistic negative characteristics.
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Never Again Revenge Definition: To exact punishment for a wrong doing on behalf, especially in a resentful or vindictive spirit Thesaurus: Attack, eye for an eye, malevolence, measure for measure, retribution, vindictive Karma Definition: The good or bad emanations felt to be generated by someone/thing Thesaurus: Fate, feeling, power Schadenfreude Definition from German Origin: Satisfaction […]
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The Death of Dorian Grey Life doesn’t get easier – we just find different ways to distract ourselves from things we cannot change. The things we can change? We make promises that we will do better next time Probably We learn to be better actors On stage nurtured Ego In full technicolour Dorian Grey Hues […]
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AI picture filters such as FaceApp were something I didn’t take much notice of until the other day when I saw the transformations of some people I sort of know. What was intriguing was that you could see the actual person in the different pictures, even with the gender filters. That gave me the […]
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Holidays have rarely had any importance to me. I spent a couple of decades travelling for business and when you do that, the last thing you want to do with time off is spend it in airports and hotels. A holiday was a day or two spent doing relaxing at home.
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Sadists and Sirens Hold onto your Anger. Hold onto that anger when your thoughts drift to (that name) and you start to feel low; Hold on to that Anger and fight. Fight Dirty Recall the belittling tone and timbre? Remember the way you were told stop being silly? You see things that aren’t there don’t […]
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Thinly Veiled It never crossed my mind for a second that a choice of fairly regular fabric could be a kink. I’ve often worn lace, not strictly limited to lingerie. A collection of dresses, tops, skirts and accessories are featured in my wardrobe. After viewing the delightful, mesmerising and elegantly feminine posts from @DeviantSuccubus Trubute […]
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Dreams, eh ? They’re something I rarely remember. I’ll often have the vague memory that I must have dreamed before awakening yet almost never recall what it was. So it was a bit of a surprise the other week to have a dream I could vividly recall at the time and even now have […]
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Stair Gazing I’ve been thinking about how transient mortality is to other people during LockdownUk CoVid19 pandemic and how the selfish need to be outdoors is at the expense of others. It also made me reflect at finding my father, dead, eyes still open – sat on the bottom few stairs. I’ve always and, probably […]