SwirlingFire: Canary In A Coalmine
Canary In A Coalmine
“I will die without you”,
he wailed,
as the snot bubbles muffled his tears
of
well rehearsed anguish.Daily use of
five fingered ferns
could not subdue
his rage,
it masked that he had, unsurprisingly
skipped
his anti-psychosis
meds.“ I won’t survive without you”,
he snivelled.
Threatening
to kill himself,
every time
she voiced
concerns of
his Mental HealthPunishments
strong when involved with
this
lame
duck.silent treatment,
added layers.
switching off his phone,
his submissive
Frantic
with worry.Resurfacing days later predictable
sobbing,
unintelligent
worthless apologies.Counselling
Proved to be
The perfect storm
learning phrases
to buy
him time
A little longer
trading in
this model for
the easy ride,
the safe choice,
the bookies favourite.Often pretending he had kept his appointment.
It was the easiest
carte Blanche
to cheat,
Pick up women, arranging dates,
the latest new toy.“Man, did you see that sweet thing?”
He said to his wing man. An older yet slicker operator.
An older man
With community standing.“Sundance & Butch” The Sweetest Bromance
Giving his blessing
his pal was impatient to lay claim on
his woman,
pressurised
for group sex,
shared with
unsavoury friends.
His chum was
Welcome
To take her.“Only when I’ve bagged
That new piece of
fleshy arse,
charmed her
to my way of thinking”Submissive women clamoured to bask in
Their glorious light.
Chattel and goods,
He knew his worth“Le Roi du Soleil”
This Golden Lion
threw back his head,
how he roared.
Animalistic prowess,
Mighty brain & mane
ploughing through
the dry wall with gusto, splitting
the lathe
beneath
the cool exterior,“ How dare she
fight me off,
I take what’s mine, however i want
whenever I say.
She cannot
say NO to me!
I own her,
her consent
is not
legal tender.
I own her!
I made her in my image,
She cannot
deny me
my rights”
he screamed.The cocktail of
street drugs,
party lines
alcohol
jet lag
All taking a heavy toll
on his mind.Reality slipping away
no safe return
he did what
he knew best.Punish her with silence
He retreated
to the bathroom
(To text the other woman)
bolted the door
Barricading
himself inside“Fuck,
I need time to think.
I went too far this time.
I hope the bruises won’t show on her
face and arms.
She knows how to make me angry
She never learns!I’ll be balls deep
in that new slut
soon.
Just watch me”,
he sighed.“You can have
whatever you want,
you deserve the best, The Sun King
of Versailles,
know your worth,
my man,
know your worth”;the voices
inside his head
too loud to ignore.
@Swirlingfire, 26 October 2020
December 24, 2020 @ 2:36 pm
Cool! As always.
December 27, 2020 @ 8:15 pm
Thank you for taking the time to read
December 2, 2020 @ 2:06 pm
It was difficult to read. I want to express my support.
December 2, 2020 @ 3:16 pm
Thank you for sharing your kind words and thoughts.
I hadn’t taken into account how familiar (for me) and I’m guessing readers, that see the more subtle, unwritten nuances concealed.
I genuinely wish you a full, happy and healthy future
Swirly 🌻💕
November 13, 2020 @ 10:34 pm
You are a generous and kind sole. I hope your way of telling this disturbing event helps bring to light what really happened. I hope it helps. xoxo
November 15, 2020 @ 3:16 pm
Thank you Francesca 💕
I shall forward your kind words to the Survivor x
November 11, 2020 @ 11:11 am
“The courage this person found to share these events lies with their own strength”
I get that – and am pleased they have that strength – i wish them well with their recovery
xx
November 11, 2020 @ 6:01 pm
#MeToo has driven survivors back into the silent darkness – it was an unexpected privilege for this person to share very unpleasant memories
Xx
November 11, 2020 @ 8:41 pm
u are sooo right!
November 11, 2020 @ 9:39 am
Wow! very vivid and strong images depicting a mighty dark situation. People reaching out to you find no judgement, only support.
November 11, 2020 @ 3:20 pm
It’s been very helpful to know some of us understand exactly how it feels to be assaulted, mocked and dismissed after Rape.
Being believed & treated with respect is our duty to other survivors.
Thank you so much for stopping by. I shall relay your comments.
Swirly x
November 9, 2020 @ 5:41 pm
Like PS said, a difficult piece to read, but it’s so important to get all of this out there, for others to see.
~ Marie
November 9, 2020 @ 7:38 pm
Thank You Marie.
All credit to the person that contacted me
Xx
November 9, 2020 @ 1:13 pm
That was difficult reading, I praise you for your strength to write another powerful message of reality. I wish you all the best.
November 9, 2020 @ 4:13 pm
I was approached by a well known account detailing very specific background information. Most was too traumatic to reproduce.
The courage this person found to share these events lies with their own strength.
It was not easy to process the shocking reign of terror this person subjected upon the submissive.
Thankyou for your kind words of support x