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Canary In A Coalmine “I will die without you”, he wailed, as the snot bubbles muffled his tears of well rehearsed anguish. Daily use of five fingered ferns could not subdue his rage, it masked that he had, unsurprisingly skipped his anti-psychosis meds. “ I won’t survive without you”, he snivelled. Threatening to kill himself, […]
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Mental Bondage First text and last text of each day. Doesn’t sound like a big task. It wasn’t. It was so easy to trap my mind into a continuous loop to revolve around him, his needs and wants, I was excluded. First text and last text were often ignored, usually because I could see his […]
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The majority of my writing is a creative outlet to process sexual assault / trauma resulting from suppressing #Rape within an uninformed non consensual d/s mentoring “dynamic”. The following piece of prose is a fresh visit as new memories surface and the anniversary to “first scent of fear” approaches – please exercise caution with […]
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his Coffee Choice Selection My favourite colour pod Auto reflex Inhale Deeply Deeper still That first hit Catching thoughts Eyes close with memories A tiny jiggle Click Snapping open Sigh Standing silently The shiver of goosebumps chilly kitchen Click Pod drops Whoosh Aromatic filtered steam Another deep inhalation Little lights blinking Press Type Scroll Press […]
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Cruel To Be Kind Hello “Dear Friend” It’s been bugging memore than it should;
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Blame, Shame – Defame Hours pass by like a decomposing carcass. Entrails ooze as the stench of death hangs over us. Heat seeking destroyers of those still breathing. Carrion Crows in a city that continues to collapse, Whilst incoming circling vultures pick over the remaining pulsating parts. Overweight bluebottles, all spittle and froth deposit their […]
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365 x2 Two years – no direct contact. I’ve become so attuned to “walking on eggshells” that my regular daily phrasing and pausing before responding has become very measured and calm. My brain swirls whilst calculating perceived levels of threat. I try to not react to information. Recently I’ve chosen to mute/unfollow angry, violent, judgemental, […]
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As With many other blog posts included in this separate tab – I write from personal experience mostly regarding the topics of Sexual, verbal, emotional and psychological abuse, #Narcissistic Personality Disorder #NPD and, #Sadistic negative characteristics.