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Mental Media Scrolling and eye rolls Click and zoom No one’s alone When your phones in the room Laughing and joking Banter runs rife Nobody knows When you cyber fuck someone’s wife Writing deep prose Spilling ones guts The Majority laugh They still think you’re nuts Buying lace knickers For the one you adore It’s […]
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The Assessment & Swirling Twirls I need more therapy. There. I said it. Cue eye rolling and yawns for those that think I should’ve been locked up in a facility with my mouth taped shut a long time ago. It’s easier to know one needs counselling than to actively search for someone qualified without agenda to […]
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Content Notice #Gender Dysphoria #Depression #Anxiety #Suicidal thoughts
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The “Why?” Of blogging I’m forever trying to figure out what I’ve done in this life to attract abusive, malevolent, intrusive, selfish, violent – verbal, physical and bullying – behaviour from two faced judgemental “perfect” people. It still continues, without direct contact – unprovoked. There will be more exploratory blogs of processing that will be […]
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Rituals and Memories It’s the way I tell ’em – Frank Carson, Comedian I like my life to be structured, ordered and in manageable sized tasks. It’s the best way I can handle all facets of external Influences without becoming overwhelmed and not losing my cool. My daily rituals are tweaked, trialled, tested and usually […]
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You’re Worthless So I Subtweet I won’t ever ask you questions I won’t communicate Or share My thoughts With you, I’m too cowardly. I tell My friends about you. I make incorrect assumptions about you and your words, to mock you and your pathetic life. I know nothing about you I never read your blogs. I […]
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The Hero Is The Villain My mind is awash with swirling thoughts crashing into each other and not having anywhere to safely stow them whilst I’m processing the dozen other thoughts that were already crashing together inside my head. Sensory overload is a documented state. Only once my thoughts have calmed down to a gentler slower […]
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SwirlingFire: Overshare (#sb4mh repost) I’ve chosen blog post #24 to submit to this weeks #sb4mh “Select a blog BEFORE you found #sb4mh”, This particular post (Jan 2019) was, on reflection, a very difficult and lonely time for me. 2018 had thrown some cleverly devious manipulation into the mix whilst I was deeply into pre trauma […]
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Content Notice – Incitement to suicide, proceed with caution In this week’s description for the #SB4MH prompt, Cat wrote: This week’s prompt is open but with a twist. Share the very first post that you wrote about mental health. Share the one you published before you knew about SB4MH. It can be about your issues or […]
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Mirage I’ve reached an unthought of number of 50 blogs posted and hosted with @sissymaidmelody (Swirlingfire: Posts). I’m still in my infancy of blogging. I like the mental process behind writing. It allows me to harness my thoughts in order to understand my life and to process the ebb and flow of past events. My […]
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Selfie or Selfish Quick glimpses into people’s lives are fascinating. I find myself zooming in on the background to gain a peek into personalities. All I gain from this is that I have a remarkably messy bedroom and many of you have storage solutions that would put Marie Kondo to shame! Why do adults on […]
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Content Notice: “As with all my pieces, I write from personal experience not make believe fantasy. Please exercise care. No detailed trauma. References to ‘scat play’ and clinical PTSD lists” The Path To Enlightenment Triggers can be both positive and negative. I know this may sound counter-intuitive, but bear with me. To understand what […]
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Hanging in the Balance June 2019 – That was a bitch of a month. It’s been a while since I’ve had the strange tummy twirling. I guess other people call them “butterflies” – it feels more thuddy than the usual ‘excited / nerves’ sensations. I thought it was possibly hunger but, I think we both […]
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I did something for the first time ever this Father’s Day, I muted the words on Twitter. I don’t mean it was the first time I’d muted these particular words, it was the first time I’d muted anything at all. This is all quite strange because it wasn’t about poignant or hard memories, it was […]
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#WickedWednesday Prompt #365 – Laughter This Shirley temple giggle gif is probably the one I’m known for using most frequently – when I’ve genuinely giggled with a tweet thread. Extract: During a laugh, respiration, heart rate and blood pressure temporarily rise. This causes oxygen to surge through the bloodstream that then results in lower blood […]
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The Request I’ve never made a secret of my introduction into the depraved and darkly delicious addictive ways of a malevolent dom of shady intentions. I think I’ve written more than thirty blogs about the ways I was manipulated and coerced into a non-consensual D/s “affair” – which, upon reflection can be termed as “CNC”. […]
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Some of you may have seen that I am a new member of the team at Sex Bloggers for Mental Health. Thank you @SassyCat3000 and @May_Matters for inviting me onto the team.
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Ignite Emotional abusers within the BDSM community are moving amongst us. They’re well known yet continue to “operate” shielded by sycophants. Often known as an “enabler” DM conversations have repeated the same names. Over and over again. Some of my online experiences (I’ll take 50%) have been through misunderstandings. Mine and theirs. I don’t give offence, it’s […]
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Gaslighting & Ghosting 7 Stages of Gaslighting in a Relationship The term originates from the Film ‘Fanny by Gaslight’ – A charming and handsome man with a dastardly past exploits his knowledge of her family history to manipulate an innocent young woman.
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Clique Bait I’ve been thinking about the way I express myself quite a lot lately. Especially in the speedy way that Twitter makes my mind race too fast. I’ve mentioned in the past that what passes for my extremely dry/gallows/friendly sarcasm in real life is greatly skewed in typed form. Intonation, giggle, smiles and […]