Category Archives: Personal

Memories of The World Trade Center

Reading Time: 4 minutes   Sat in my office that Tuesday afternoon I heard a bubble of noise to look at the news.  Confused as it was, the scenes were horrifying.  A plane had flown in to one of the towers of the WTC.  Back then no one’s first conclusion was terrorism, we must be witnessing a terrible accident. Then we had… Read More »

Labour of Love

Reading Time: 4 minutes   You might call this weekend a labour of love with lots of added nostalgia. Over five years ago my former Mistress (P) stopped being a domme.  She became a pro-domme after her online business went down the pan due to Chinese fakes flooding the market.  It never really suited her as the difference between lifestyle and pro… Read More »

[F4TFriday] I Write

Reading Time: 4 minutes   I write. For work I’ve written dry technical documents for far too many years.  It’s a feature of the tech world that when someone has spent long enough at the coal face such that they’re quite valuable in that role, they get set to writing documents and specifications about it.  The ability to spell and use grammar… Read More »

Self Indulgent Post – II (Revisited)

Reading Time: 2 minutes   It’s that time again.  I went back to read what I wrote this time last year.  This year there is one more year of melody getting stronger and having her own perspective.  This adds a different poignancy in that following the ‘outing’ conversation with my father it was clear that the same conversation if my mother had… Read More »

[F4TFriday] Was / Am I Crazy ?

Reading Time: 4 minutes Am I going crazy ? That wasn’t a totally silly question.  As I now know, melody has been there for a very long time although largely ignored.  The first time she grabbed control and wouldn’t let go was a scary mental episode to come to terms with. I know it’s not a coincidence that she did so a… Read More »

Just When It Was All Tickety-Boo

Reading Time: 2 minutes Betrayal !  It’s an ugly word. For me betrayal apparently happens over small things, it’s not the big thing that others describe replete with the frenzy of Armageddon.  In fact I think the worst betrayal I experienced was because she didn’t know she’d done it, despite it being implemented months before it was activated.

Pater Familias

Reading Time: 9 minutes I did something for the first time ever this Father’s Day, I muted the words on Twitter. I don’t mean it was the first time I’d muted these particular words, it was the first time I’d muted anything at all. This is all quite strange because it wasn’t about poignant or hard memories, it was the fact that… Read More »

Me, Myself and I

Reading Time: 3 minutes If you’re a regular reader then you’ll know I discuss various aspects of melody as an increasingly strong persona.  If you’re not a regular reader, this post may not make much sense.  It’s a mood piece and rambles a bit.  A post for me as the audience.

Roleplay

Reading Time: 3 minutes Roleplay. Some love it and some hate it, so this week we are asking you for your thoughts and experience. Is it something you use to push your boundaries and explore the kinks you share, or something you have found just doesn’t work for you. Whatever your thoughts on this creative kink, we would love to hear about… Read More »

Exceptions Make The Rule

Reading Time: 1 minute A while back I wrote that melody doesn’t wear red, except for shoes and nails.  That still holds true. With four days available to be melody, including two in public, it’s worth taking the time over the nails. It’s a level of sinful decadence she’s not often able to indulge.    

Teaching Poker to a Dog

Reading Time: 4 minutes Here’s the thing – I don’t understand this word dominance. For sure, I know what it means, just as I know all too well what it feels like to be on the receiving end of dominance. What I mean is that I do not understand what it is to be dominant in a D/s context.  I don’t understand… Read More »

Bank Holiday Silliness

Reading Time: 1 minute Gender dysphoria is often accompanied by body dysmorphia.  For some it’s debilitating.  Fortunately, I only have a light version of it.  I was doing well last year with weight loss until I got seriously ill and ended up putting half of it back on.  I’m finding it depressingly hard to shift. Looking at myself can set off all… Read More »

Do I Love or Hate Pain ? – Yes

Reading Time: 3 minutes I don’t watch or browse porn.  I certainly used to.  If I had to put my finger on it, the (never intense) interest in porn waned as the chastity lifestyle took hold and other parts of my makeup that I now recognise had a chance to incubate and then germinate. If someone pointed me at a video, I… Read More »