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Sadists and Sirens Hold onto your Anger. Hold onto that anger when your thoughts drift to (that name) and you start to feel low; Hold on to that Anger and fight. Fight Dirty Recall the belittling tone and timbre? Remember the way you were told stop being silly? You see things that aren’t there don’t […]
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Stair Gazing I’ve been thinking about how transient mortality is to other people during LockdownUk CoVid19 pandemic and how the selfish need to be outdoors is at the expense of others. It also made me reflect at finding my father, dead, eyes still open – sat on the bottom few stairs. I’ve always and, probably […]
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A Pocketful of Changes Snakes wearing dresses with too many pockets; concealing their weapons hidden from sight. florals and stripes with pretty bows flowing; eager to please before claws start to swipe. Sweet fragrant Laughter, safe in small spaces; Slipping from focus, waiting to strike. Satin swishing, shiny and sparkling; Supple butter leather as flexible […]
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Denial of Self Sometimes when I look back it can make me feel like I’ve been Peter denying Christ after the Last Supper and a lot more than three times. The parallel that I’d forgotten was that after the third denial the cock crowed and it reminded Peter that Jesus had said Peter would […]
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‘Eating you own liver’ – It’s an old phrase that I haven’t seen in use for some time. For me it sums up some of those feelings generated by social anxiety.
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What about those voices ? Do they like to tell you what to do ? Do you listen ? Can you ignore them ?
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The Superior Sex The following piece describes emotional mental and physical abuse from Narcissist Personality Disorder and non-consensual sexual sadism – although this piece of writing is heavily sanitised from specifics, it may be distressing for those coming to terms with the realisations from an abusive sexual partner. for support to those affected by the […]
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The Silent Timekeeper I’m the full stop in mid sentence The pause in every breath The funeral march that envelops The disorderly disgrace I’m the half drunk cup of coffee With the lipstick smeared rim The swirling of the liquid weather turning grim I’m the clicking of each footstep The echo in your head I’m […]
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Kindness is a River Kindness is a River that quenches the land Kindness is a River that extends a hand Kindness is a River that flows across clay Kindness is a River that will find its own way Kindness is a River that gathers speed Kindness is a River that everyone needs Kindness is a […]
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Swirly Most Read Posts – #1 #1 The First Scent of Fear #2 Silent Scream #3 Gaslighting & Ghosting #4 Overshare #5 The Hour Glass #6 Twitter Changed My Life #7 Empty On The Inside #8 The Request #9 Mentor #10 You’re Worthless so I Subtweet These are the most clicked posts since I […]
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This post, published just before Christmas wasn’t linked to any prompt. Very timely that May and Floss have “2019 in a Nutshell” as the #F4T prompt to end the year. With Christmas being somewhat crap, re-reading this post of only 10 days ago provides a larger perspective on how good a year 2019 has been […]
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Now that’s a scary title reference. Here I am trying to be culturally topical except that on checking I find that TW3 aired even before I was born 😱 !! For the blog this has been a year of consolidation. It’s first full January to December. The first year of it being part of […]
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Rewarded with Punishments My introduction to BDSM and d/s was not a straightforward or ethically healthy and open way to learn. Originally, this prompt was spawned from memories of enjoying CP, daddy’s belt, caning as positive attention and showing his pleasure towards me. I had read several blogs of other submissives and noted time after […]
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A small disclaimer: these are my personal views on how mental health vs mental illness applies to me. Nothing is implied as to how anyone else should feel or cope. This is an open week on SB4MH and it gives me an opportunity to give some thoughts to a great post from early October […]
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Game, Set. Match That’s a great Avi As the drool hits the screen Another great body All buffed Shiny clean lace, heels, stockings Can you hear the clasps snap I’m new I’m exciting My bio screams “bait” The opening gambit The giggle back kissy face emojis Followback chat The usual style The change underway The […]
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Gratitude It’s the weirdest thing. Seeing my Twitter @name in a compilation list – The Top 100 Sex Blogging Superheroes of 2019 I’m not a nuts and bolts, dildo testing, vibrator wielding, uncovered gusset angled writer. Whilst, I quickly add – zero judgements of others – this is, after all, how we learn from each other […]
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One Wish Thoughts keep swirling into view then out again. My head aches from too many thoughts. I’m not a scholarly deep thinker I’m an over thinker An over analyser The last few days (at time of writing) have not been the best. I thought I was doing a lot better. It’s the first meltdown […]
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I am not a Guardian reader, which means I may only see articles on there when they cause a stir on Twitter. This was one such recent ‘stir’ … Why I ditched my therapist to hire a dominatrix instead
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Consent Stomach churning Tightening against acid burns Bile rises more often now Crippling pain that wakes me from sleep Hot sweats cold shivers Nausea Vomiting How delightful Complicated from Physical damage Lies balancing on top of more lies An upturned pyramid Angled steps heading nowhere An Escher print of a complicated architectural testament of how […]
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My list of what is social media is defined by age. My first access to the Internet was in 1991. The company I’d just joined had installed a Cisco router with a 14,400 dial on demand modem. A small SCO Unix box was the means for providing everyone with an email account. I became […]