Losing One’s Roots
Where do you come from ? Who are your people, your family ? How else do we find an anchor to place ourselves within the turbulent streams of time ?
The Chrysalis
It’s all about life’s energies.
Changing Priorities
Sometimes I have a stream of consciousness that expresses itself over many months. Things that fill the mind in the small hours of sleeplessness. Quite amazing the personal thoughts that end up here as if this was actually a totally private space.
Educating Innocence
It’s now a lost part of London, back then it was a simple forgotten backwater. I loved the area when I visited. R had a pokey little flat on the south side of the river, just a bit down stream from Woolwhich. The view from the lounge was surprisingly magnificent, looking over towards the City Airport with the… Read More »
What’s in a Name ? Suggestions ?
What’s in a name ? Rather a lot, actually. In an environment where you’re unlikely to see or meet the people you interact with, the name is your brand, your USP.
Thoughts from a Disturbing Picture
The @WhoresofYore account is a treasure trove, combining current sex worker advocacy with fascinating historical context and downright curiosities. She posted this curiosity of a picture which has all sorts of interesting things in it for my own darker kinks, fetishes and desires.
The Last Illusion
Love – the last illusion of the illusionless man This quote is from the very end of Le Carre’s Tinker, Tailor, Soldier, Spy. First read in my teen years, I always considered it rather profound. As the years have gone by I’m not so sure that I know what it means now.
Invaluable Lesson In The Dungeon
It’s not often you enter the dungeon and get greeted with “God you look awful !” I’ve no idea how I looked, but I sure felt terrible. Sod’s law had come to play. It had been some time since the previous CP session and I’d really been looking forward to this one until my body went on strike… Read More »
Self Indulgent Post – II
Today is a poignant day. Five years ago today I got the 5 am phone call to say that my mother had died. By itself that was not a surprise, the end had been inevitable for some time.
Nodal Involvement
The other weekend was a trip to Glyndebourne with the former mistress. As well as lots of good food, the Glyndebourne experience (the opera was hit and miss, but this post isn’t a review) and too much alcohol late in to the nights, it was also a time for deep conversation. I must admit that this is an… Read More »
Solitary Isn’t Lonely
Before diving in to this one I must state that the post title means me and only me. I’m well aware that many people struggle with loneliness and it can manifest as much in a crowd of people as it can in being alone. They have my sympathies for something that can be very debilitating.
Colour, Style & Image. A Work In Progress.
You read something and it sets off a train of thought and sometimes if you think hard enough it leads to a just a little bit more understanding of your own outlook.
Carry On Domming #1
I love the incongruous in BDSM, the unexpected moments to produce a giggle, the quirky and the downright hilarious. Tension busting moments. Ice breaking moments. This is the first in an occasional series,
Mending Stray Threads And Purpose
It’s over a week ago since I wrote about about how hard a session of confinement and brainwashing had been. This is quite a hard post to write because I have to admit that it actually took me to some very unexpected places over an extended period of time that take quite a bit of processing.
Your Post Might Not Be As Self-Indulgent As You Think
It becomes a recurring question as to what it is I am doing here ? Not just regarding what I post, but what it is I enjoy reading from other people.
Clearing the Bar – Confinement & Brainwashing
Six hours in a sleepsack, oblivious to the world sounds wonderfully relaxing, right ? It certainly can be, but when she straps me in, applies the blindfold and places the headphones over my ears there’s an additional element. The headphones are playing a continuous hypnosis loop and will continue to do so for the next six hours. This… Read More »
An Apology To (some) Doms
My knowledge and experience of male doms is limited and coloured from the past.
The Leisure of Slow Bondage
I love bondage, confinement and sensory deprivation. The tighter the bondage, the greater the feelings of restraint and there are so many variations in how it can be implemented. When it comes to canes, whips and other means of inflicting pain and raising endorphins the mind is very focused on dealing with the immediacy of the pain and… Read More »
Subs of Convenience
I came across this term recently in an article by @DoctorSue. It is a wonderful encapsulation of something I’ve tried to convey myself but failed to reduce it to such a succinct phrase.
Give Me All Your Money
Financial domination has to be one of the more contentious aspects of D/s. On coming across this kink the initial reaction is often one of horror and repugnance. There was a Twitter thread on Sunday started by @_Masterseye about some of the uglier FinDom terminology turning up in her timeline via RT’s. It seems I set myself up to produce… Read More »