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Stair Gazing I’ve been thinking about how transient mortality is to other people during LockdownUk CoVid19 pandemic and how the selfish need to be outdoors is at the expense of others. It also made me reflect at finding my father, dead, eyes still open – sat on the bottom few stairs. I’ve always and, probably […]
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There is a very good piece on Unherd by Gavin Haynes that’s well worth a read as it holds up a mirror to the mob mentality of identity politics within social media – The Purity Spiral, do go read it. In my absence from social media I find that I’ve been labelled a bigoted transphobe. […]
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A Pocketful of Changes Snakes wearing dresses with too many pockets; concealing their weapons hidden from sight. florals and stripes with pretty bows flowing; eager to please before claws start to swipe. Sweet fragrant Laughter, safe in small spaces; Slipping from focus, waiting to strike. Satin swishing, shiny and sparkling; Supple butter leather as flexible […]
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Denial of Self Sometimes when I look back it can make me feel like I’ve been Peter denying Christ after the Last Supper and a lot more than three times. The parallel that I’d forgotten was that after the third denial the cock crowed and it reminded Peter that Jesus had said Peter would […]
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‘Eating you own liver’ – It’s an old phrase that I haven’t seen in use for some time. For me it sums up some of those feelings generated by social anxiety.
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It’s really hard to consider that the activities you enjoy are edge play. You are comfortable embarking on them even though you know how difficult or stressful they can end up being. And yet, the eye of the beholder can be illuminating.
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I haven’t taken or posted pictures for a while. But for these boot’s I had to.
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Prompts can sometimes pass by in a blur when you’re not ready to write. Sometimes you look at a prompt and think you have no connection to it. And that’s how it was for this prompt until I came upon this picture.
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How does an introverted, asexual, aromantic submissive go dating ? I guess that over the years the answer works out to be rarely and with trepidation.
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Content Notice: Suicide and suicidal thoughts. I’ll categorically state here that this is not a cry for help. It’s a place to dump when there’s that realisation that things are not okay. The best way for me to handle that right now is to take a break from the shit and purge some thoughts. […]
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Love Letter To A Nobody Reframing my thinking … “People pleasing” is also known as “fawning” – displaying weak boundaries, inviting abusers and narcissists into your space / life with one’s own kindness and compassion, seeing it being leeched away, then turned against the target. It is also establishing repeated permission to be treated cruelly […]
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I’ve had a lot of confusion over the years about romance. Growing up, so much propaganda gets bombarded at us. Be good, be dutiful, follow the norms of your parents and grand-parents and you, too, will live the Stepford dream of romance and the perfect partner.
Reading Time: 5 minutes Pride usually gets me into trouble. Or perhaps it’s not actual pride, more an unguarded slide into smugness. The worst part of pride is mistaking it for approval from others. Well, let’s qualify that, it’s when they are approving of you in doing things that conform to their world view and not yours.
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I find that the prompt of privacy also encompasses several other recent prompts that I’ve been too busy to write for. When all is said and done I am a very private person. Is that a natural trait, or is it a learned behaviour. I don’t think I was a private person until the […]
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Over the past week, this blog has been sick. Actually it’s been sick for a while and my attempts to fix it in the last few days have seen quite a lot of various spam type notifications being emitted, making it look suspiciously compromised. Thank you to those who got in touch worried that […]
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What about those voices ? Do they like to tell you what to do ? Do you listen ? Can you ignore them ?
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The Superior Sex The following piece describes emotional mental and physical abuse from Narcissist Personality Disorder and non-consensual sexual sadism – although this piece of writing is heavily sanitised from specifics, it may be distressing for those coming to terms with the realisations from an abusive sexual partner. for support to those affected by the […]
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The Silent Timekeeper I’m the full stop in mid sentence The pause in every breath The funeral march that envelops The disorderly disgrace I’m the half drunk cup of coffee With the lipstick smeared rim The swirling of the liquid weather turning grim I’m the clicking of each footstep The echo in your head I’m […]
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Home is not a physical place that I recognise. I was uprooted from the last place I last considered to be a physical place to call home at the age of eight. I’ve never since thought of a building, town or even a wide geographic location as home. The closest I got to that […]