Reading Time: 4 minutes Am I going crazy ? That wasn’t a totally silly question. As I now know, melody has been there for a very long time although largely ignored. The first time she grabbed control and wouldn’t let go was a scary mental episode to come to terms with. I know it’s not a coincidence that she did so a… Read More »
Reading Time: 2 minutes Betrayal A weird feeling in the pit of my stomach It’s not anxiety It’s different It feels like it’s attached Deep inside my core. I thought at first I needed more water to drink, The trembling of dehydration in soaring temperatures That moment before The room goes silent You feel as though you’re about to vomit A hot… Read More »
Reading Time: 4 minutes Humiliation play, this is an awkward one. Done within consensual, negotiated boundaries there’s a fair number will safely enjoy this type of play. I recently became reacquainted with an old post by @_floss_84 on cuckolding that includes a passage on the humiliation aspect that I asked to reproduce for this piece. Humiliation – Why have I, after saying it isn’t about… Read More »
Reading Time: 2 minutes Betrayal ! It’s an ugly word. For me betrayal apparently happens over small things, it’s not the big thing that others describe replete with the frenzy of Armageddon. In fact I think the worst betrayal I experienced was because she didn’t know she’d done it, despite it being implemented months before it was activated.
Reading Time: 3 minutes I thought I knew about communication in a D/s relationship after the years with the former mistress. Like most long lived relationships we had established good communication. Some accomplished with my weekly journal and increasingly the unconscious communications of people who know each other very well. It’s worth noting that your agreed ground rules to communication must be adhered… Read More »
Reading Time: 4 minutes After recent events and posts it is worthwhile lightening up a little. What I had in mind to write for this F4TFriday veered off in to an ugliness of spirit that had to be scrapped. Instead, I thought I would be more jovial and visit some of the close calls from my 20+ years of travelling. International travel… Read More »
Reading Time: 5 minutes It’s Definitely YOUR Fault CONTENT NOTICE References to: Rape, Sexual assault When reading blogs from professionally paid writers one expects a certain level of responsibility, regardless of personal views. Albeit, their views delivered in a palatable, sensibly reasoned way. A few days ago I read a blog from a very well known name. It’s been Retweeted and commented upon… Read More »
Reading Time: 3 minutes Survive: Part 2 [Part one of @SwirlingFire’s survival guide is here: Survive – Part 1]
Reading Time: 4 minutes Survive How to survive:- Wake up every morning but you wish you hadn’t Make a morning coffee and sit quietly contemplating what horrors will be reactivated inside ones mind Start the process of slipping back into auto pilot to care for #Mothership Navigate around the home without falling apart into a tearful sobbing mess so Mum wont hear… Read More »
Reading Time: 9 minutes I did something for the first time ever this Father’s Day, I muted the words on Twitter. I don’t mean it was the first time I’d muted these particular words, it was the first time I’d muted anything at all. This is all quite strange because it wasn’t about poignant or hard memories, it was the fact that… Read More »
Reading Time: 4 minutes When she can face the outside world my former mistress (that’s a lot to keep typing, I’ll call her P) is the one sounding board where I know I can get complete non-judgemental honesty – it works in the other direction, too. Her C-PTSD can mean that several months go by between meet ups over a good long… Read More »
Reading Time: 4 minutes Judgemental vs Moral Compass A fire is burning so strong inside me that I’m struggling to extinguish the growing flames. I’m unable to direct the heat to those that should hear my words.
Reading Time: 3 minutes That’s a prompt phrase that either gets a serious polemic or used for a bit of fun. Ask me at about the youngest age I can remember and I’d have described something like this picture. I wanted to grow up to be the maiden tied to the tracks.
Reading Time: 3 minutes If you’re a regular reader then you’ll know I discuss various aspects of melody as an increasingly strong persona. If you’re not a regular reader, this post may not make much sense. It’s a mood piece and rambles a bit. A post for me as the audience.
Reading Time: 3 minutes Roleplay. Some love it and some hate it, so this week we are asking you for your thoughts and experience. Is it something you use to push your boundaries and explore the kinks you share, or something you have found just doesn’t work for you. Whatever your thoughts on this creative kink, we would love to hear about… Read More »
Reading Time: 4 minutes Mistakes are often categorised as regrets over missed opportunities rather than outright cock-ups. But first up here’s some real life changing mistakes.
Reading Time: 3 minutes Laughter, Tears, Twisted Thoughts and Fears Current status: sat in coffee shop reviewing Wicked Wednesday entries for prompt 365 -Laughter Laughing and giggling with an almost four year old and his little brother Charlie. The innocence of childhood in an apparent happy family unit. Both little boys were animated in their conversation with me, from the next table… Read More »
Reading Time: 4 minutes The CP sessions with the domme started some months after the hypnosis. Even so it’s nearly three years since that first one. After the latest CP session (yesterday at time of starting this post) I’ve had time to reflect on how much I’ve changed and accomplished in those three years. That first CP session was my first in… Read More »
Reading Time: 4 minutes Orwell’s book is an oft mis-quoted book by people who have obviously never actually read it. I must have first read it when I was about 13, one of the most frightening books I have ever read. I don’t recall the TV adaptation, nor the film with John Hurt, though I love Terry Gilliam’s Brazil which captures the… Read More »
Reading Time: < 1 minute A while back I wrote that melody doesn’t wear red, except for shoes and nails. That still holds true. With four days available to be melody, including two in public, it’s worth taking the time over the nails. It’s a level of sinful decadence she’s not often able to indulge.