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Mental Media Scrolling and eye rolls Click and zoom No one’s alone When your phones in the room Laughing and joking Banter runs rife Nobody knows When you cyber fuck someone’s wife Writing deep prose Spilling ones guts The Majority laugh They still think you’re nuts Buying lace knickers For the one you adore It’s […]
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Content Notice References to Peter Sutcliffe The blog by @May_Matters is a great read that is enjoyed by many. There’s been a wonderful addition to it with posts from her man, Mr More. These posts evoke my memories of gritty experiences of the 1970’s and 1980’s. The genesis of this post was a lovely tale, Take […]
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Kink and Fetish I am such a freaky chick. I get turned on by really odd things. I hadn’t realised until quite recently what turns me on to someone can also turn me completely off too. 1. Word Play – That’s one of my “things” – word play as flirting, challenging my mind with […]
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Sometimes it’s hard to think that you’re doing anything different or what might be regarded as out of the ordinary. Like-minded souls on Twitter and in the blogosphere are not quite an echo chamber, but they do tend to help normalise the idea that kink is ubiquitous. And perhaps it is. When the tabloids […]
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Betrayed I saw the idea to write daily via a semi pro writer/tweeter. It was to write 365 words everyday. I bent the directive to help maintain focus. I call it my #365Words. As I attempted the first few days, I found I had started to write prose, sometimes loosely rhyming, yet not a specific […]
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One Year Blog Anniversary Month The Universe seems to be using my vulnerability against me. I’ll blame it on The Harvest Moon. A full moon. People extolling their own frustrations and dumping them on me. Others with noticeable mental health issues that are deliberately inflicting their brand of bad attitude I’m not certain if I’m […]
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Content Notice Needle Play Pictures In the time I’ve been writing this blog and relating some D/s experiences with my domme, I’ve maintained a level of discretion as to who she is. It’s not that I’ve hidden things, the breadcrumbs have always been there and some curious readers have followed them and worked out who […]
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Sat in my office that Tuesday afternoon I heard a bubble of noise to look at the news. Confused as it was, the scenes were horrifying. A plane had flown in to one of the towers of the WTC. Back then no one’s first conclusion was terrorism, we must be witnessing a terrible accident. […]
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The Assessment & Swirling Twirls I need more therapy. There. I said it. Cue eye rolling and yawns for those that think I should’ve been locked up in a facility with my mouth taped shut a long time ago. It’s easier to know one needs counselling than to actively search for someone qualified without agenda to […]
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I know many people who like, even need, a soundtrack to their daily lives. It’s not something I can do. I’ve always had an aversion to loud noise and more recently I have developed misophonia, which means that although the worst are ‘people noises’, any background noise has the potential to cause migraines, you’ll […]
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Nightmares and Dreams Ahhh the innocent days of making a wish on the Blue Moon, so many years ago, a once in a lifetime opportunity. Taking an enormous gamble. The risk of a lifetime. Facts, truth and information unknown. A seductive mystery A distinguished mastery A deception Moon madness That one wish that broke me […]
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I hoped I’d feel so much better to have a goal and exceed it. I don’t feel its much of an achievement. I hurt as much today as I did 365 days ago. The only difference? 99% of it was not about me 1% – Me, believing the lies. I was brainwashed by an expert […]
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Content Notice #Gender Dysphoria #Depression #Anxiety #Suicidal thoughts
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The Core One step forward Feeling brave Finding A voice They think she’s a fool Learning starting The knave raising defences boundaries to make People around her Notice sigh “Fake” Eye rolls The mocking Waiting for signs Told you She’ll turn Static and flywheel No middle gears Hurting lonely No one around The heart breaking […]
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You might call this weekend a labour of love with lots of added nostalgia. Over five years ago my former Mistress (P) stopped being a domme. She became a pro-domme after her online business went down the pan due to Chinese fakes flooding the market. It never really suited her as the difference between […]
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The “Why?” Of blogging I’m forever trying to figure out what I’ve done in this life to attract abusive, malevolent, intrusive, selfish, violent – verbal, physical and bullying – behaviour from two faced judgemental “perfect” people. It still continues, without direct contact – unprovoked. There will be more exploratory blogs of processing that will be […]
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I write. For work I’ve written dry technical documents for far too many years. It’s a feature of the tech world that when someone has spent long enough at the coal face such that they’re quite valuable in that role, they get set to writing documents and specifications about it. The ability to spell […]
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Someone suggested that this should be the title if I ever wrote a book on my travels through D/s and kink. It’s a flippant title that has a serious message within it.
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Rituals and Memories It’s the way I tell ’em – Frank Carson, Comedian I like my life to be structured, ordered and in manageable sized tasks. It’s the best way I can handle all facets of external Influences without becoming overwhelmed and not losing my cool. My daily rituals are tweaked, trialled, tested and usually […]
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Too many posts of a more serious nature recently, it’s time to talk of some more fun things. Perhaps you might call this my primary fetish – the original sin, as it were. I have been fascinated by high heels and women’s shoes for as long as I can remember. Some speculation is that […]