Coffee and WiFi I’m sat in the little coffee place I’ve walked passed a thousand times. It’s the only place open locally to sit and write with WiFi. It’s full of men having very late breakfast style plates of food. It’s bustling and very popular with the non coffee house type set one normally sees on a regular… Read More »
Kintsugi – Beautifully Flawed I’m not entirely certain why I’ve been in two minds to release the most current (as yet unavailable) blog post. The hardest part is not in the writing but the “setting free” – not the words/grammar/subject matter. It’s the knowledge that my thoughts are committed to writing. I was posed this question: “… Read More »
Content Warning Pictures of needle play It’s not everyone’s cup of tea and less than two years ago it wouldn’t have been mine, either. In fact, it was something of a hard limit.
I wasn’t going to go all retrospective about 2018 until I thought that in some ways it’s been quite momentous and that I need to acknowledge and celebrate that.
This post is me cathartically venting. It is my way of dumping an unpleasant time over Christmas and moving on (until next time). CONTENT WARNING This post contains examples of the stream of consciousness I was subjected to over two days of Christmas. Be warned that it contains examples of :- Transphobia / Homophobia Racism Misogyny Body shaming… Read More »
Whilst trying to reconcile my past traumas (until very recently repressed) and also with my current state of learning how I’d been treated badly by a d-type, I started thinking about the chronology of my life. Memories comes thick and fast. A minimum of a shudder – and sometimes, a full body blow impact. Time has made me… Read More »
The last brainwashing session completely destroyed my sense of time. It was no accident, she designed it that way and although outcomes with hypnosis are far from being guaranteed, her design succeeded quite spectacularly.
I don’t have a soundtrack to my life. I’m not one of those people who has a constant need for music, I find it too distracting and it will trigger my hatred of noise unless I’m prepared. Attending opera and concerts is a different matter and I can think of some sublime songs/arias (whatever you want to call… Read More »
Earlier in the year I documented a moment for a number of firsts. I was persuaded to partake of a sploshing session and it was the first time being filmed. That adventure was detailed here In Which Melody Exposes Herself. Several months ago I had my arm lightly twisted to do it all again. I don’t need to describe… Read More »
That’s probably not the question you might think it is. What people see is in the eye of the beholder and over the years I have had some fascinating conversations and insights as to what people think they see in melody.
A surprising stat has come to my attention. My previous post was my 100th on this blog. Since starting the blog, that works out to about 11 posts a month or slightly better than 1 every 3 days.
I’ve been experiencing the brainwashing sessions for a year, there are a number evolutions over that time as both of us have learned so much. The key word for this post is TIME.
CONTENT WARNING Gaslighting Mental Abuse I was walking home from work tonight, a usual occurrence. A few recent chats had been swirling around my head Firstly …… are submissives a certain type of character in general terms ? or are S types very open about who they are and life traumas experienced ? or are S… Read More »
Day 93 – No Contact I’ve felt weak many times but resisted the strong pull to message. It wasn’t easy but I’ve stayed strong. This is the longest time period I’ve ever known without any form of contact from him. I woke up this morning feeling pretty good but drained. My block booking work shift… Read More »
This time I’m going all the way back to the time when I discovered Mrs Silks chat room and held my nerve long enough to stay there. It’s a time that can’t be disentangled from E and the effects she had on my development. Over a long period of years there were many downs alongside the ups which… Read More »
One thing that periodically comes to haunt me are the thoughts about dark cravings and desires. For me, there are two distinct types of darkness that can inhabit the nastier recesses of my mind
There’s a right of passage when the 18th birthday is looming. It’s time to swagger up to the door of the local night club and attempt to get in without being quizzed. Back then they weren’t bothered about underage drinking so long as it wasn’t too obvious. So having found myself inside the den of pleasure it all… Read More »
My earliest learnt form of “Self Defence” was displayed as “Verbal Attack” It’s taking time to release old patterns. Please have patience with me until a new and better service is available & powered by fresh beginnings This post started as a tweet. My attention had been drawn to a tweet of mine on a… Read More »
It struck me as an unusual prompt. However, in usual Swirly fashion thoughts came thick and fast and locked my phone keyboard at the speed I was trying to write all my firing synaptic connections and word catalytic converters into more blog post ideas. Unfortunately the ideas hit me right in the midst of an… Read More »
Emotions !! I fear it’s a topic I will return to again and again. Emotional responses are my clearest means to understanding the flux of melody being in the ascendant. There is an “I” composed of “him” and “melody” along a spectrum. For the longest time it was comprised almost entirely of “him”. To the extent that it’s… Read More »