SwirlingFire: Coffee and WiFi

Coffee and WiFi I’m sat in the little coffee place I’ve walked passed a thousand times.  It’s the only place open locally to sit and write with WiFi.  It’s full of men having very late breakfast style plates of food.  It’s bustling and very popular with the non coffee house type set one normally sees on a regular… Read More »

SwirlingFire: Kintsugi

  Kintsugi – Beautifully Flawed I’m not entirely certain why I’ve been in two minds to release the most current (as yet unavailable) blog post. The hardest part is not in the writing but the “setting free” – not the words/grammar/subject matter.  It’s the knowledge that my thoughts are committed to writing. I was posed this question:  “… Read More »

The Christmas House of Horrors

This post is me cathartically venting.  It is my way of dumping an unpleasant time over Christmas and moving on (until next time). CONTENT WARNING This post contains examples of the stream of consciousness I was subjected to over two days of Christmas.  Be warned that it contains examples of :- Transphobia / Homophobia Racism Misogyny Body shaming… Read More »

SwirlingFire: The Hour Glass

Whilst trying to reconcile my past traumas (until very recently repressed) and also with my current state of learning how I’d been treated badly by a d-type, I started thinking about the chronology of my life. Memories comes thick and fast. A minimum of a shudder – and sometimes, a full body blow impact. Time has made me… Read More »

More Sploshing for melody

Earlier in the year I documented a moment for a number of firsts.  I was persuaded to partake of a sploshing session and it was the first time being filmed.  That adventure was detailed here In Which Melody Exposes Herself. Several months ago I had my arm lightly twisted to do it all again.  I don’t need to describe… Read More »

100 Not Out

A surprising stat has come to my attention.  My previous post was my 100th on this blog.  Since starting the blog, that works out to about 11 posts a month or slightly better than 1 every 3 days.

SwirlingFire: Whose Collar Is This ?

    CONTENT WARNING Gaslighting Mental Abuse I was walking home from work tonight, a usual occurrence.   A few recent chats had been swirling around my head Firstly …… are submissives a certain type of character in general terms ? or are S types very open about who they are and life traumas experienced ? or are S… Read More »

SwirlingFire: Eggshells

      Day 93 – No Contact I’ve felt weak many times but resisted the strong pull to message. It wasn’t easy but I’ve stayed strong.  This is the longest time period I’ve ever known without any form of contact from him. I woke up this morning feeling pretty good but drained.  My block booking work shift… Read More »

The Tragedy of E

This time I’m going all the way back to the time when I discovered Mrs Silks chat room and held my nerve long enough to stay there.  It’s a time that can’t be disentangled from E and the effects she had on my development.  Over a long period of years there were many downs alongside the ups which… Read More »

What Stares Back From The Darkness ?

One thing that periodically comes to haunt me are the thoughts about dark cravings and desires.  For me, there are two distinct types of darkness that can inhabit the nastier recesses of my mind

SwirlingFire: Verbal Self-Defence

      My earliest learnt form of “Self Defence” was displayed as “Verbal Attack”  It’s taking time to release old patterns. Please have patience with me until a new and better service is available & powered by fresh beginnings This post started as a tweet. My attention had been drawn to a tweet of mine on a… Read More »

SwirlingFire: Writing

      It struck me as an unusual prompt. However, in usual Swirly fashion thoughts came thick and fast and locked my phone keyboard at the speed I was trying to write all my firing synaptic connections and word catalytic converters into more blog post ideas.  Unfortunately the ideas hit me right in the midst of an… Read More »