Just When It Was All Tickety-Boo

Reading Time: 2 minutes Betrayal !  It’s an ugly word. For me betrayal apparently happens over small things, it’s not the big thing that others describe replete with the frenzy of Armageddon.  In fact I think the worst betrayal I experienced was because she didn’t know she’d done it, despite it being implemented months before it was activated.

[F4TFriday] Communication

Reading Time: 3 minutes I thought I knew about communication in a D/s relationship after the years with the former mistress.  Like most long lived relationships we had established good communication.  Some accomplished with my weekly journal and increasingly the unconscious communications of people who know each other very well. It’s worth noting that your agreed ground rules to communication must be adhered… Read More »

[F4TFriday] That Was Close !!

Reading Time: 4 minutes After recent events and posts it is worthwhile lightening up a little.  What I had in mind to write for this F4TFriday veered off in to an ugliness of spirit that had to be scrapped. Instead, I thought I would be more jovial and visit some of the close calls from my 20+ years of travelling.  International travel… Read More »

SwirlingFire: It’s Definitely YOUR Fault

Reading Time: 5 minutes It’s Definitely YOUR Fault CONTENT NOTICE  References to: Rape, Sexual assault When reading blogs from professionally paid writers one expects a certain level of responsibility, regardless of personal views.  Albeit, their views delivered in a palatable, sensibly reasoned way. A few days ago I read a blog from a very well known name.  It’s been Retweeted and commented upon… Read More »

SwirlingFire: Survive: Parts 1 & 2

Reading Time: 4 minutes Survive How to survive:- Wake up every morning but you wish you hadn’t Make a morning coffee and sit quietly contemplating what horrors will be reactivated inside ones mind Start the process of slipping back into auto pilot to care for #Mothership Navigate around the home without falling apart into a tearful sobbing mess so Mum wont hear… Read More »

Pater Familias

Reading Time: 9 minutes I did something for the first time ever this Father’s Day, I muted the words on Twitter. I don’t mean it was the first time I’d muted these particular words, it was the first time I’d muted anything at all. This is all quite strange because it wasn’t about poignant or hard memories, it was the fact that… Read More »

Passing Judgement

Reading Time: 4 minutes When she can face the outside world my former mistress (that’s a lot to keep typing, I’ll call her P) is the one sounding board where I know I can get complete non-judgemental honesty – it works in the other direction, too. Her C-PTSD can mean that several months go by between meet ups over a good long… Read More »

SwirlingFire: Judgemental vs Moral Compass

Reading Time: 4 minutes   Judgemental vs Moral Compass A fire is burning so strong inside me that I’m struggling to extinguish the growing flames.  I’m unable to direct the heat to those that should hear my words.

[F4TFriday] When I Grow Up

Reading Time: 3 minutes That’s a prompt phrase that either gets a serious polemic or used for a bit of fun. Ask me at about the youngest age I can remember and I’d have described something like this picture.  I wanted to grow up to be the maiden tied to the tracks.

Me, Myself and I

Reading Time: 3 minutes If you’re a regular reader then you’ll know I discuss various aspects of melody as an increasingly strong persona.  If you’re not a regular reader, this post may not make much sense.  It’s a mood piece and rambles a bit.  A post for me as the audience.

Roleplay

Reading Time: 3 minutes Roleplay. Some love it and some hate it, so this week we are asking you for your thoughts and experience. Is it something you use to push your boundaries and explore the kinks you share, or something you have found just doesn’t work for you. Whatever your thoughts on this creative kink, we would love to hear about… Read More »

SwirlingFire: Laughter, Tears, Twisted Thoughts and Fears

Reading Time: 3 minutes Laughter, Tears, Twisted Thoughts and Fears Current status: sat in coffee shop reviewing Wicked Wednesday entries for prompt 365 -Laughter Laughing and giggling with an almost four year old and his little brother Charlie.  The innocence of childhood in an apparent happy family unit.  Both little boys were animated in their conversation with me, from the next table… Read More »

Snake Bite

Reading Time: 4 minutes The CP sessions with the domme started some months after the hypnosis.  Even so it’s nearly three years since that first one.  After the latest CP session (yesterday at time of starting this post) I’ve had time to reflect on how much I’ve changed and accomplished in those three years. That first CP session was my first in… Read More »

[F4TFriday] Room 101

Reading Time: 4 minutes Orwell’s book is an oft mis-quoted book by people who have obviously never actually read it.  I must have first read it when I was about 13, one of the most frightening books I have ever read. I don’t recall the TV adaptation, nor the film with John Hurt, though I love Terry Gilliam’s Brazil which captures the… Read More »

Exceptions Make The Rule

Reading Time: 1 minute A while back I wrote that melody doesn’t wear red, except for shoes and nails.  That still holds true. With four days available to be melody, including two in public, it’s worth taking the time over the nails. It’s a level of sinful decadence she’s not often able to indulge.    

To Galahad – Noun

Reading Time: 4 minutes Going through the draft folder and trying to clean it up, I came across a saved quote from a conversation from months ago.  Recalling that conversation it was about how men randomly and rapidly appear in the timeline of a female and particularly in DMs to offer support, outrage, comfort and a number of other seemingly non-threatening things.… Read More »

Teaching Poker to a Dog

Reading Time: 4 minutes Here’s the thing – I don’t understand this word dominance. For sure, I know what it means, just as I know all too well what it feels like to be on the receiving end of dominance. What I mean is that I do not understand what it is to be dominant in a D/s context.  I don’t understand… Read More »

SwirlingFire: Laughter

Reading Time: 2 minutes #WickedWednesday Prompt #365 – Laughter This Shirley temple giggle gif is probably the one I’m known for using most frequently – when I’ve genuinely giggled with a tweet thread. Extract: During a laugh, respiration, heart rate and blood pressure temporarily rise. This causes oxygen to surge through the bloodstream that then results in lower blood pressure. Laughter improves… Read More »