Category Archives: Emotion

2018 – Perhaps Better Than I Thought

I wasn’t going to go all retrospective about 2018 until I thought that in some ways it’s been quite momentous and that I need to acknowledge and celebrate that.

Will Everybody Please STFU

There’s a right of passage when the 18th birthday is looming.  It’s time to swagger up to the door of the local night club and attempt to get in without being quizzed.  Back then they weren’t bothered about underage drinking so long as it wasn’t too obvious. So having found myself inside the den of pleasure it all… Read More »

Emotions: Shaken And Stirred

Emotions !!  I fear it’s a topic I will return to again and again. Emotional responses are my clearest means to understanding the flux of melody being in the ascendant. There is an “I” composed of “him” and “melody” along a spectrum.  For the longest time it was comprised almost entirely of “him”.  To the extent that it’s… Read More »

A Personal Journey Through D/s Hypnosis – Part 6, Don’t Panic

I wrote a few days ago on the sudden decision to wear heeled boots to work (Little Steps for Big Steps).  Really I’d love to be able to wear court shoes with 4″ stilettos but that’s not going to happen any time soon. There’s quite a few things now where an aspect of melody rounds off the male… Read More »

A Personal Journey Through D/s Hypnosis – Part 5, Crumbling Barriers

There’s a common wish fulfilment myth about hypnosis that at the swing of a watch or the snap of a finger that you can be instantly made into somebody or something new.  For someone who is struggling this seems to be a deceptively simple solution to all their problems.  Instead it can seriously add to the problems.

The Elusive Emotional Orgasm

Despite modern pressures to acknowledge and cater to emotions it has to be said that for older male generations it is still largely taboo to express emotion.  We were conditioned to ‘suck it up’, stiff upper lip and all that.  Perhaps the one emotion that’s almost acceptable to display is anger but so often it can be seen… Read More »

The Personal Pronouns Quagmire

I find this an odd topic to contemplate on a personal level.  I can read articles from people who are very aware of their preferred pronouns and I’ve come to understand why this is an important issue to them.  Having said that, as the combined entity of him and her I am starting to have a strange relationship… Read More »

When the Shackles Come Off

There’s an erotic symbolism when a session starts and she puts on the cuffs.  It’s a first step in the submission to feel the bondage restriction around the wrists.  It sets you up for what’s to come.  Doesn’t matter if it’s to be gentle or hard, the cuffs are a reminder that for this space in time you… Read More »

Can You Repair a Broken Soul ?

The break up wasn’t a break up in the traditional sense.  No drama, no acrimony.  Simply a flow from one state to another.  In the first state she was an active domme and in the second, she wasn’t.  In the first state I was her sub, in the second, a close friend.  

Gender Fluid Identity

For most of my life I’ve asked questions of myself regarding sexuality and gender.  I have to admit that for many years I never really understood they were separate questions.  Some 25+ years ago I got my first access to the Internet and started to find some answers that I could quite happily live with.

D/s Hypnosis – Where’s the Limit ?

My original series of posts for PainAsPleasure was recently reposted on this blog  MELODY’S STORY – part 3, hypnosis in BDSM and I am very grateful to one concerned commenter with whom there was a wonderful conversation allowing me to expand on the safety aspects that aren’t apparent in the posts on hypnosis.

A Different Type of Session

The only time I’ve ever known, even on only the most general level, as to what a session will include is the time she was breaking a hard limit and introducing me to needle play

How Do I Know melody is Real ? – Emotions

How real is melody ?  It’s a question I’ve asked myself for years.  In past years the answer would come back that she’s not very real, though her presence might explain some odd quirks of behaviour or feelings that are abnormal for the general personality. In more recent times with the encouragement of hypnosis, she is most definitely… Read More »