Category Archives: Fears

Beyond Trust

I tend to get caught up in semantics and precisely what a word means to me.  Lately my thoughts have turned to the word vulnerable and it’s sibling, vulnerability and how my changing perceptions relate to another key word, trust.

The Tragedy of E

This time I’m going all the way back to the time when I discovered Mrs Silks chat room and held my nerve long enough to stay there.  It’s a time that can’t be disentangled from E and the effects she had on my development.  Over a long period of years there were many downs alongside the ups which… Read More »

A Personal Journey Through D/s Hypnosis – Part 6, Don’t Panic

I wrote a few days ago on the sudden decision to wear heeled boots to work (Little Steps for Big Steps).  Really I’d love to be able to wear court shoes with 4″ stilettos but that’s not going to happen any time soon. There’s quite a few things now where an aspect of melody rounds off the male… Read More »

A Personal Journey Through D/s Hypnosis – Part 5, Crumbling Barriers

There’s a common wish fulfilment myth about hypnosis that at the swing of a watch or the snap of a finger that you can be instantly made into somebody or something new.  For someone who is struggling this seems to be a deceptively simple solution to all their problems.  Instead it can seriously add to the problems.

Facing The Darkness

I and others sometimes write about the descent in to darkness and dark fantasies that male subs, especially, are prone to.  They’re often related to the internalised rationale of ‘I wish someone would make me do that.’ 

D/s Hypnosis – Where’s the Limit ?

My original series of posts for PainAsPleasure was recently reposted on this blog  MELODY’S STORY – part 3, hypnosis in BDSM and I am very grateful to one concerned commenter with whom there was a wonderful conversation allowing me to expand on the safety aspects that aren’t apparent in the posts on hypnosis.

MELODY’S STORY – part 3, hypnosis in BDSM

This post was originally posted on 20/02/2018 as the last of three guest posts on the PainAsPleasure blog by BibulousOne.  He saw something and encouraged melody to write.  From those small beginnings I’ve graduated to running my own blog. The post can be found at MELODY’S STORY – part 3, hypnosis in BDSM but is reproduced here in it’s entirety.

Excuses, Excuses . . .

We’ve all made excuses for things.  Our behaviour, things we promised and didn’t deliver, undying devotion to a domme of 3 days online acquaintance, tasks left undone.

Fears of Questioning Your Gender and Sexuality – Don’t believe the labels

This post is about my earliest searches for truth about who and what I am.  Hopefully, it may help new subs with similar leanings and questions to get started and slay some of the demons in their heads.