Reading Time: 5 minutes Colour Me Stupid The #F4TFriday prompt #111 asks for words to live by: “Not my circus, Not my (flying) Monkeys” For the most part, I don’t have many happy memories as they occurred either side of something unpleasant imprinted in my mind. Sadly the good parts were blocked along with any unpleasantness. There are now some better… Read More »
Reading Time: 6 minutes Content Advisory General references to rape and rape-play. NO details or descriptions. Light in the Dark Do you acknowledge CNC/RAPE fantasy and DV/RAPE to be totally different ? CNC is seen as a “taboo” kink – mainly by those of us who don’t understand what it involves. Far from any awkward ways of describing what is or… Read More »
Reading Time: 5 minutes SwirlingFire: Overshare (#sb4mh repost) I’ve chosen blog post #24 to submit to this weeks #sb4mh “Select a blog BEFORE you found #sb4mh”, This particular post (Jan 2019) was, on reflection, a very difficult and lonely time for me. 2018 had thrown some cleverly devious manipulation into the mix whilst I was deeply into pre trauma counselling. Someone I… Read More »
Reading Time: 4 minutes Mirage I’ve reached an unthought of number of 50 blogs posted and hosted with @sissymaidmelody (Swirlingfire: Posts). I’m still in my infancy of blogging. I like the mental process behind writing. It allows me to harness my thoughts in order to understand my life and to process the ebb and flow of past events. My blogs are all… Read More »
Reading Time: 4 minutes Swirly’s Grand Day Out Born October 2016, a caged bird – released, broken, dull feathers, betraying a breath that was almost extinguished. Parallel similarities to the mythical Phoenix. From flames comes death (you google it) to a pile of Ashes. The time between fully destroyed and dormant, until tiny glowing embers caught on the wind, enough to repeat… Read More »
Reading Time: 5 minutes Selfie or Selfish Quick glimpses into people’s lives are fascinating. I find myself zooming in on the background to gain a peek into personalities. All I gain from this is that I have a remarkably messy bedroom and many of you have storage solutions that would put Marie Kondo to shame! Why do adults on Twitter social media… Read More »
Reading Time: 7 minutes Content Notice: “As with all my pieces, I write from personal experience not make believe fantasy. Please exercise care. No detailed trauma. References to ‘scat play’ and clinical PTSD lists” The Path To Enlightenment Triggers can be both positive and negative. I know this may sound counter-intuitive, but bear with me. To understand what a TRUE trigger… Read More »
Reading Time: 4 minutes Hanging in the Balance June 2019 – That was a bitch of a month. It’s been a while since I’ve had the strange tummy twirling. I guess other people call them “butterflies” – it feels more thuddy than the usual ‘excited / nerves’ sensations. I thought it was possibly hunger but, I think we both know that it’s… Read More »
Reading Time: 3 minutes Crazy It all started as a throw away comment with a giffage war in DM. A private nickname. The style in which it was presented was with good grace and was taken with good grace as, no doubt, I’d done or said something daft. It happens a lot. I get the silly giggles and do embarrassing stuff. Too… Read More »
Reading Time: 2 minutes Betrayal A weird feeling in the pit of my stomach It’s not anxiety It’s different It feels like it’s attached Deep inside my core. I thought at first I needed more water to drink, The trembling of dehydration in soaring temperatures That moment before The room goes silent You feel as though you’re about to vomit A hot… Read More »
Reading Time: 5 minutes It’s Definitely YOUR Fault CONTENT NOTICE References to: Rape, Sexual assault When reading blogs from professionally paid writers one expects a certain level of responsibility, regardless of personal views. Albeit, their views delivered in a palatable, sensibly reasoned way. A few days ago I read a blog from a very well known name. It’s been Retweeted and commented upon… Read More »
Reading Time: 3 minutes Survive: Part 2 [Part one of @SwirlingFire’s survival guide is here: Survive – Part 1]
Reading Time: 4 minutes Survive How to survive:- Wake up every morning but you wish you hadn’t Make a morning coffee and sit quietly contemplating what horrors will be reactivated inside ones mind Start the process of slipping back into auto pilot to care for #Mothership Navigate around the home without falling apart into a tearful sobbing mess so Mum wont hear… Read More »
Reading Time: 4 minutes Judgemental vs Moral Compass A fire is burning so strong inside me that I’m struggling to extinguish the growing flames. I’m unable to direct the heat to those that should hear my words.
Reading Time: 3 minutes Laughter, Tears, Twisted Thoughts and Fears Current status: sat in coffee shop reviewing Wicked Wednesday entries for prompt 365 -Laughter Laughing and giggling with an almost four year old and his little brother Charlie. The innocence of childhood in an apparent happy family unit. Both little boys were animated in their conversation with me, from the next table… Read More »
Reading Time: 2 minutes #WickedWednesday Prompt #365 – Laughter This Shirley temple giggle gif is probably the one I’m known for using most frequently – when I’ve genuinely giggled with a tweet thread. Extract: During a laugh, respiration, heart rate and blood pressure temporarily rise. This causes oxygen to surge through the bloodstream that then results in lower blood pressure. Laughter improves… Read More »
Reading Time: 7 minutes The Request I’ve never made a secret of my introduction into the depraved and darkly delicious addictive ways of a malevolent dom of shady intentions. I think I’ve written more than thirty blogs about the ways I was manipulated and coerced into a non-consensual D/s “affair” – which, upon reflection can be termed as “CNC”. I’m using this… Read More »
Reading Time: 7 minutes Ignite Emotional abusers within the BDSM community are moving amongst us. They’re well known yet continue to “operate” shielded by sycophants. Often known as an “enabler” DM conversations have repeated the same names. Over and over again. Some of my online experiences (I’ll take 50%) have been through misunderstandings. Mine and theirs. I don’t give offence, it’s taken. If I’ve… Read More »
Reading Time: 4 minutes Gaslighting & Ghosting 7 Stages of Gaslighting in a Relationship The term originates from the Film ‘Fanny by Gaslight’ – A charming and handsome man with a dastardly past exploits his knowledge of her family history to manipulate an innocent young woman.
Reading Time: 6 minutes Clique Bait I’ve been thinking about the way I express myself quite a lot lately. Especially in the speedy way that Twitter makes my mind race too fast. I’ve mentioned in the past that what passes for my extremely dry/gallows/friendly sarcasm in real life is greatly skewed in typed form. Intonation, giggle, smiles and reciprocated put downs… Read More »