Category Archives: Personal

Gender Fluid Identity

For most of my life I’ve asked questions of myself regarding sexuality and gender.  I have to admit that for many years I never really understood they were separate questions.  Some 25+ years ago I got my first access to the Internet and started to find some answers that I could quite happily live with.

A Letter to my 16 Year Old Self

It’s a bit of a fad, so I thought I’d give it a go. Dear M, You won’t recognise me, though I recognise you all too well.

How Do I Know melody is Real ? – Emotions

How real is melody ?  It’s a question I’ve asked myself for years.  In past years the answer would come back that she’s not very real, though her presence might explain some odd quirks of behaviour or feelings that are abnormal for the general personality. In more recent times with the encouragement of hypnosis, she is most definitely… Read More »

MELODY’S STORY – part 3, hypnosis in BDSM

This post was originally posted on 20/02/2018 as the last of three guest posts on the PainAsPleasure blog by BibulousOne.  He saw something and encouraged melody to write.  From those small beginnings I’ve graduated to running my own blog. The post can be found at MELODY’S STORY – part 3, hypnosis in BDSM but is reproduced here in it’s entirety.

Self-Indulgent Post.

This is not my usual fare, it’s something of a self indulgence. Today would have been my mother’s 78th birthday.  She was born in South London a matter of weeks before the Luftwaffe started dropping bombs on London. 

MELODY’S STORY – part 2 – chastity

This post was originally posted on 27/01/2018 as the second of three guest posts on the PainAsPleasure blog by BibulousOne.  He saw something and encouraged melody to write.  From those small beginnings I’ve graduated to running my own blog. The post can be found at MELODY’S STORY – part 2 – chastity but is reproduced here in it’s entirety.

MELODY’S STORY, PART 1 – submission

This post was originally posted on 2/01/2018 as the first of three guest posts on the PainAsPleasure blog by BibulousOne.  He saw something and encouraged melody to write.  From those small beginnings I’ve graduated to running my own blog. The post can be found at MELODY’s STORY, PART 1 – Submission but is reproduced here in it’s entirety.

This Is Not The Domme You Are Looking For

I see some useful blogs and Twitter threads go by providing advice in how to approach and behave towards a domme.  Or how the newly (and not so newly) curious might take the first steps to seeing their dreams and fantasies be played out in reality. This post looks at some of the same things but from a… Read More »

The Bitter Sweetness of the End

The scene is set in The Grand Hotel in Brighton.  The elegant sweeping staircase leading up from the plush and busy lobby.  The rooms and the rest of the hotel hiding incipient shabbiness by playing on appealing through the quaintness of history and tradition rather than modern facilities.

Melody: A Compulsive Shoe Shopper

Heels, they’ve been a fetish since I was very young.   These things grab us, stick in the mind until one day they surface with the desire to explore that fetish.

The Eyes Have It

After some internal debate I finally decided to post this. A recent visit to the opticians resulted in new prescriptions.  One prescription for ultra clarity with short-sightedness, especially for driving.  The problem with that was that I can no longer wear a single pair for driving and close up reading.  So another prescription was made for reading. There… Read More »