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There are different types of hypnosis sessions and my favourite is the real-time session. These are the same format as the online webcam sessions, except that we’re in the same room and about three feet apart. There’s an added element of intimacy to these sessions. She can play more with her voice in the confidence […]
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Gaslighting & Ghosting 7 Stages of Gaslighting in a Relationship The term originates from the Film ‘Fanny by Gaslight’ – A charming and handsome man with a dastardly past exploits his knowledge of her family history to manipulate an innocent young woman.
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For me the term spanking is not, as it might be for others, a short sharp punishment. It’s not a six of the best to highlight a broken rule. For me it’s part of a highly intimate dance over one or perhaps two hours in a CP session. The actual spanking part is an intermediate […]
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Clique Bait I’ve been thinking about the way I express myself quite a lot lately. Especially in the speedy way that Twitter makes my mind race too fast. I’ve mentioned in the past that what passes for my extremely dry/gallows/friendly sarcasm in real life is greatly skewed in typed form. Intonation, giggle, smiles and […]
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Reflections Part 2 – Exposed Married lovers ? Non Consensual non monogamous relationships Poly with multiple partners that other partners don’t know you’re Involved with but really should? Untreated STI Lying about sexual health Hiding our real sexual orientation or who we really feel we are (apologies don’t know correct term/phrase) Non disclosure of marital […]
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Gender dysphoria is often accompanied by body dysmorphia. For some it’s debilitating. Fortunately, I only have a light version of it. I was doing well last year with weight loss until I got seriously ill and ended up putting half of it back on. I’m finding it depressingly hard to shift. Looking at myself can […]
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CONTENT WARNING Mild references to Gaslighting Mild references to Sexual Assault “….. How will you re-engage with counselling ? You have a shit load to say now ! …..”
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I don’t watch or browse porn. I certainly used to. If I had to put my finger on it, the (never intense) interest in porn waned as the chastity lifestyle took hold and other parts of my makeup that I now recognise had a chance to incubate and then germinate. If someone pointed me at […]
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Reflection When we, okay I, think of blogging, I always think of the romantic frothy persona created by Carrie Bradshaw – the lead character from ‘sex and the City’ all those years ago. The truth is my life is nothing like hers apart from one (two if you count luxury footwear) major similarity. […]
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Content / Trigger Warning Sexual Harassment Rape Male victims This piece goes outside my usual themes. Over the years I’ve heard a lot in public and in confidence about the struggles and consequences of women with male behaviour ranging from the unthinking harassment of ‘banter’ to full on sexual, physical and mental aggression. My sympathy, […]
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I’ve spent some time considering this simple word and frankly, I must be a disappointment in this respect. I first encountered online forums some 25 years ago and if you want obsessive rules, these are still the places to go. Whether it was the high protocol rooms on IRC – ‘slave must kneel and ask […]
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Circle of Flames Something has been playing on my mind for quite some time. Boundaries. I realise I’ve never had many or as I’m beginning to accept – any. On early arrival onto Twitter somebody during the course of a DM conversation used the term ‘people pleaser’. The descriptions certainly echoed many things […]
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It’s a lovely, inclusive honourific to receive from a friend, but I’m really coming to loathe the term. Maybe that’s not quite right, I think what I loathe is the fakeness it generates in the broader world. At best it’s a badge to show off right-on credentials and moral superiority. At worst it’s cover for […]
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Generally I hate the thought of posting something self-indulgent. Then once in a while I think, what the hell, this is my blog. Over recent months melody has become primary enough to be out and about in public. Yesterday was a long trip to the dungeon, which means stops at service stations and being exposed […]
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“I can’t believe you did that !!” My first words in over an hour, though they had been silently going around my head as I left the artist to her work. “What ? You mean beating lumps out of your arse followed by needles ?” “Yeah, that” Impact play and needles are both major endorphin […]
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Silent Scream I’m sat cross legged on a squishy futon. As I brush fluff from my trousers The woman opposite mirrors me. Expertly examining my face and body language for “tells”. I smile inwardly whilst feeling that familiar catch in my throat and my chest tightening are about to betray my cool exterior. I’m usually […]
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Content Warning NSFW cartoon of FemDom castration (at the end) This post can be blamed on @PosyChurchgate. She commented on my Asexuality post and made the mistake of asking me to expand on castration fetish. It’s the sort of topic that elicits sniggers and winces and yet, surprisingly, it also garners more quiet interest than […]
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Hypnosis – You do it to yourself. The sub-conscious acts on the suggestions it wants to, those compatible with its desires and fantasies. The hypnotist can’t make you want incompatible things, but they can manipulate the intensity of your desire to facilitate their suggestions for things you knowingly and unknowingly want, lowering barriers to adoption […]
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I wasn’t going to acknowledge Mother’s Day, certainly not publicly, until I started seeing various tweets go by. It struck me just how difficult a day it can be for a lot of people. There’s an additional poignancy for me in that tomorrow would have been her birthday, too. It’s not that I’ve ignored this […]