2018 – Perhaps Better Than I Thought
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I wasn’t going to go all retrospective about 2018 until I thought that in some ways it’s been quite momentous and that I need to acknowledge and celebrate that.
The Christmas House of Horrors
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This post is me cathartically venting. It is my way of dumping an unpleasant time over Christmas and moving on (until next time). CONTENT WARNING This post contains examples of the stream of consciousness I was subjected to over two days of Christmas. Be warned that it contains examples of :- Transphobia / Homophobia Racism […]
SwirlingFire: The Hour Glass
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Whilst trying to reconcile my past traumas (until very recently repressed) and also with my current state of learning how I’d been treated badly by a d-type, I started thinking about the chronology of my life. Memories comes thick and fast. A minimum of a shudder – and sometimes, a full body blow impact. Time […]
Time Rendered Meaningless
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The last brainwashing session completely destroyed my sense of time. It was no accident, she designed it that way and although outcomes with hypnosis are far from being guaranteed, her design succeeded quite spectacularly.
The Beat of the Music
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I don’t have a soundtrack to my life. I’m not one of those people who has a constant need for music, I find it too distracting and it will trigger my hatred of noise unless I’m prepared. Attending opera and concerts is a different matter and I can think of some sublime songs/arias (whatever you […]
More Sploshing for melody
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Earlier in the year I documented a moment for a number of firsts. I was persuaded to partake of a sploshing session and it was the first time being filmed. That adventure was detailed here In Which Melody Exposes Herself. Several months ago I had my arm lightly twisted to do it all again. I don’t […]
Who Do You Think I Am ?
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That’s probably not the question you might think it is. What people see is in the eye of the beholder and over the years I have had some fascinating conversations and insights as to what people think they see in melody.
100 Not Out
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A surprising stat has come to my attention. My previous post was my 100th on this blog. Since starting the blog, that works out to about 11 posts a month or slightly better than 1 every 3 days.
A Personal Journey Through D/s Hypnosis – Part 8, Scrambling Time Sense
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I’ve been experiencing the brainwashing sessions for a year, there are a number evolutions over that time as both of us have learned so much. The key word for this post is TIME.
SwirlingFire: Whose Collar Is This ?
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CONTENT WARNING Gaslighting Mental Abuse I was walking home from work tonight, a usual occurrence. A few recent chats had been swirling around my head Firstly …… are submissives a certain type of character in general terms ? or are S types very open about who they are and life traumas experienced ? […]
SwirlingFire: Eggshells
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Day 93 – No Contact I’ve felt weak many times but resisted the strong pull to message. It wasn’t easy but I’ve stayed strong. This is the longest time period I’ve ever known without any form of contact from him. I woke up this morning feeling pretty good but drained. My block […]
The Tragedy of E
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This time I’m going all the way back to the time when I discovered Mrs Silks chat room and held my nerve long enough to stay there. It’s a time that can’t be disentangled from E and the effects she had on my development. Over a long period of years there were many downs alongside […]
What Stares Back From The Darkness ?
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One thing that periodically comes to haunt me are the thoughts about dark cravings and desires. For me, there are two distinct types of darkness that can inhabit the nastier recesses of my mind
Will Everybody Please STFU
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There’s a right of passage when the 18th birthday is looming. It’s time to swagger up to the door of the local night club and attempt to get in without being quizzed. Back then they weren’t bothered about underage drinking so long as it wasn’t too obvious. So having found myself inside the den of […]
SwirlingFire: Verbal Self-Defence
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My earliest learnt form of “Self Defence” was displayed as “Verbal Attack” It’s taking time to release old patterns. Please have patience with me until a new and better service is available & powered by fresh beginnings This post started as a tweet. My attention had been drawn to a tweet of […]
SwirlingFire: Writing
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It struck me as an unusual prompt. However, in usual Swirly fashion thoughts came thick and fast and locked my phone keyboard at the speed I was trying to write all my firing synaptic connections and word catalytic converters into more blog post ideas. Unfortunately the ideas hit me right in the […]
Emotions: Shaken And Stirred
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Emotions !! I fear it’s a topic I will return to again and again. Emotional responses are my clearest means to understanding the flux of melody being in the ascendant. There is an “I” composed of “him” and “melody” along a spectrum. For the longest time it was comprised almost entirely of “him”. To the […]
At the Car Wash
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It’s a familiar thing these days. Pull up in the supermarket car park in the crisp early morning and there’s a gang there in overalls and green jackets. You’re going to have to run the gauntlet of the very un-British thing of being asked a direct question by a stranger. It’s as bad as the […]
Control – The Jedi Mind Trick
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Submission, what is it ?? We all have our own ideas and definitions. One of them being that it is giving up “control” to someone else. One of the most commonly expressed sub fantasies is to give up control, hand over total control. It’s the root for “I’ll do anything you want, mistress’, the time […]
SwirlingFire: Voice Control
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Voice Control Swirlingfire: A Posting History @Swirlingfire, 7 November 2018